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All Of The Things
03:06
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And You told me all of your secrets
And I listened to all of your secrets
Yeah You trusted me
You'd confide in me
All the bad, bad thoughts I had inside of me
And I'll laugh when you're not there
I'll pretend enough to care
Cartoon devil horns on my head
No repentance when I'm dead
You told me all of the things that i wanted to hear, But I didn't want to hear them from you
You saved my life I'm so fucking certain
But what's the point of a life If I have no fucking purpose
I think I'll love you in the next life
Maybe we'll be meant to be
Or maybe you'll be meant to be with someone who thinks you were meant to be
And maybe you won't think of me whenever someone mentions heartbreak,
Mentions the pain of being alone
It still breaks my heart when I think of you alone
You told me all of the things that i wanted to hear, But I didn't want to hear them from you
And I wasn't good for you
But I wish I could have been good to you
You told me all of the things that i wanted to hear, But I didn't want to hear them from you
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so call me up at 3AM in the morning
forget my name and call me Gordon
tell me that you love your boyfriend
well fuck go tell your boyfriend
but fuck, you're too drunk, you don't want to ruin it
and you've been gone since before about 2 in the morning
I CANT REMEMBER
THE LAST TIME YOU CALLED ON MY PHONE CAUSE YOU DRANK WAY TOO MUCH
AND YOU GRABBED FOR YOUR KEYS
BUT YOU SLEPT ON THE COUCH
I TOOK ONE SHOT TOO MANY
AND SLEPT ON THE COUCH
AND WE WENT OUT FOR BREAKFAST
I SCREEN SHOT YOUR SNAPCHAT
AND IM WAY TOO HUNGOVER
AND YOU WANT YOUR KEYS BACK
so you can drive home
yeah you want your keys back
we'll I'll see you next weekend
okay so you're
at a party senior year
I haven't seen a party for years
I'm anti social as fuck
you just want to get lucky
so text me all night
and say you have a secret
you really want to tell me but you don't know if I'll keep it
I can't remember the texts that you sent
but you won when I told you I missed you and cried when you told me that it wouldn't work
but when I was so drunk that I threw up at home
and I sent you a text that said "God do I like you"
and God do I like you
and God do I like you
and I don't remember sending that text
and you friend when she called me said what comes next she said
DRUNK WORDS ARE SOBER THOUGHTS
drunk words are sober thoughts
and I'm thinking of you
yeah I'm thinking of you
and I think that I like you more than these people
so I'm drinking and hoping that I can act stupid and send you a text that I might then regret
cause I'm weak and I'm meek and have low self esteem
and I can't see how people can like me at all
but I hope that you're one of them
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3. |
I Get It Wrong
02:32
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"I told my mother I was going to cut my hair and leave you
Seeing you day to day's just not the same and I don't know how to treat you
You say you love me, you say you hate me
I say I love you, I've never wavered
I don't go back on promises I've made to ones I've loved,
But there's a point in the process where you have to call it quits, pack up and say you're done"
But you're the only thing I know
I guess you were right, I could have taken it slow
I don't learn from my mistakes
I get it wrong
"I told my father, who I hate, that I feel that you are one and the same
You're both so fucking crazy and I'm the only one who's sane"
I told my mother that I loved you
Told my father that I loved you
Told all my friends that I loved you
Why can't I act like I love you
But you're the only thing I know
I guess you were right, I could have taken it slow
I don't learn from my mistakes
I get it wrong
And I don't act myself with you
But I feel the best whenever I do
But you're the only thing I know
I guess you were right, I could have taken it slow
I don't learn from my mistakes
I get it wrong
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4. |
I'm A User
02:25
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you think that I've fallen In love with you
do do do
you think that I've fallen in love with
no. no I haven't, but I don't know how to say it yet
you've got you job
got your pay
got your day planned
and I've got an idea that I'm taking to fruition
I see the CDs that you order for the store
and they're nice and they're sleek and they're sold for market retail
but when they're stagnant and they're old
they're not selling like you want em
and I want em
and you give em to me freely
I'm not in it for the love or the affection
I'm in it for the Macklemore deluxe print CDs
you think that I've fallen In love with you
do do do
alright it's
2015 and I'm barely alive
and you hug me and you hold me and you show me some compassion
I feel weird knowing feelings that you're feeling
feeling feelings that I'm feeling
but I like you by my side
PSYCH
FUCK NO
I don't want to marry you
sing
"PSYCH
FUCK NO
I don't wanna marry you"
I only like you cause you have an SUV
and you buy me gucking pizza
and you listen to me cry
sing
"I can't deal with the guilt" (x4)
when I told you that I loved you
I only knew one thing
and I'd trade all the CDs in the world
if i knew that you were happy
when you told me that you cared for me
I felt my heart would burst
I lay awake in bed at night
and I hope that you're alright
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you make me feel like I'm in highschool
you make me feel like nothing matters, nothing matters anymore
you make me feel like I'm in highschool counting down the days til summer
you make me feel alright.
you make me feel like gossip
you make me feel like angsty texts that I sent from my flip phone
you make me feel like skipping class, writing songs, making bands and playing shows and hauling gear to the gym in the morning
you make me feel like dyeing my hair
DIY all shitty like, in the basement bathroom
you make me feel like cruising in the night, holding hands and climbing trees, property damage and warm soda
you make me feel like I'm in highschool
you make me feel like riding buses as I'm late to get to class
you make me feel like I'm in high school counting down days til graduation
you make me feel at home
you make me feel like I'm high school crushing
you make me feel like cartoon hearts that are drawn in my notebook
you make me feel like school dances I never went to, hearing stories and feeling jealous but I'm too nervous to ever change
you make me feel like the candles are lit
illuminate my bedroom as we dance and you cry
you make me feel like shaving my head
20 dollars, buying razors, awkward pictures on the band trip
you make me feel like I'm in high school, and I hate it
you make me feel like I'm in high school, and I love it
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you think that I am fucking crazy
I am
I don't want to hide it any more
pop pills just to keep me alive
and now I'm doing better than I ever would have thought I could before
pardon if it sounds weird but God do I love you
and I don't think that I mean it but I hear what people say behind my back
it's the only damn reason I could ever have to go and try to do it
I'm not going with a note I'm just leaving and never coming back
so say your last words
and try and make them count
but I'm a full force gale in the middle of a river
I'm not knocked out I'm just down for the count
twenty days later find my body in the river
you think that I am fucking crazy
I am
I don't want to hide it any more
pop pills just to keep me alive
and now I'm doing better than I ever would have thought I could before
I make it sound fun but I swear to god that inside it's killing me
25's a goal but I don't
know which way I lean
I could die unhappy and leave behind a legacy
or I could live unhappy
and hope that one day I'm not
so come tie the knot
and tell me that you love me
tell me that I'm safe
baby come here and protect me
be my mirror
my sword and my shield
protect me from the thoughts
that I don't wanna hear
so p l e a s e d
o n t l e a v e
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7. |
This Is Not A Dance
01:53
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aw fuck the form and the poetry
I just want you in your completeness
so complete me
I need completing
my happiness it is fleeting
I've got all my eggs in a basket
I'm a basket case
and case in point
people point and laugh
I feel like I'm having a heart attack
yeah I look like shit
and I feel like shit
and I act like shit
I'm a huge piece of shit
but you love me unconditionally
or like me and that's the same to me
every time a girl does a double take
I just fuck it all up
and every time someone says that they like me
I just fuck it the fuck right up
and I know that you're not interested
I wouldn't be interested in me either
and I know you can't look me in the eyes
i know that I can't either
i know that I should gucking die
believe me I've fucking tried
I know that I should fucking die
believe me I've fucking tried
but my friends all got tired of that quick
and the friends that all left, they said to eat shit
and normally I don't write three verses for a song
but more than the booze I think I'm addicted to self hatred
when I look in the mirror I seriously have to choke back vomit
and it's completely foreign to me that someone would look at me and not do the same
I'll be dead before I reach 25
and you can remember me in yearly Facebook posts
but deep down
we'll all be happier
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